>I am about to do something that has terrified me for so long that I have avoided it… for years. No matter how scary it is, I have to do it though. I have to push through, get over myself, and just do it.
I am about to take some before pics.
I have NEVER wanted to fully accept that I am as overweight as I am. I am STILL not ready to accept it enough to put the pictures here, or to post my weight here. I don’t even want to post how much I want to lose, because it may give away that scary number. Part if it is because I don’t want to admit it to anyone (especially the work people who are following this blog and have never met me in person), but mostly because I don’t want to admit it to myself.
Once I lose some of this weight I am going to force myself to actually post some before and after pics. I think that once I have some progress to show, I won’t be so ashamed of posting them.
I have lost ONE lb this week. That puts me at 8 lbs since January 1st. The weight loss is going slow, but it’s going. I actually lost the first 7 lbs the first week of January, and then I tried for another two weeks to keep losing but nothing happened. I hit a plateau and essentially gave up. I didn’t gain, but I certainly didn’t lose. Now I am back on the wagon though, and my body is letting me know in no uncertain terms that I am going to have to work hard and stick to it to see any progress. One lb this week is better than no lbs this week, so I am proud of that victory, no matter how small it is.
The Biggest Loser is on tonight though, so it’s on. That show always motivates me to exercise. =D